40 Weeks

I don't know why I was so surprised to wake up today with absolutely zero signs of you even maybe putting in an appearance today. I should have known better really. But today my due date arrived (and is now nearly over) and you still don't seem keen on budging just yet.

At 37 weeks I was classed as full term and was ready for you then, but was ok with the idea that it could still be a while yet.

At 38+3 I finished work and wasn't keen on the idea of being sat at home twiddling my thumbs so was even more ready for you then, but figured there were still a few bits I could be sorting whilst I waited for your arrival.

By the following week I was well & truly fed up of waiting and somehow just expected you to come. I'd been so much more pro-active about engaging in labour-inducing activities this time around and a massive, naive part of me was really hoping they would work. They didn't. Because here I am. Still pregnant.

I'm quite uncomfortable now. There have been various bouts of discomfort over the past few weeks but evidently they were just pregnancy pains and not labour pains. I'm struggling to sleep due to aching hips and bathroom trips.

Me & daddy are already fed up of people pestering asking if there has been any signs or if baby is here yet.... because yep! didn't they know, we just had you in secret and decided not to tell anyone!!! Like I won't be shouting it from the rooftops and spamming my Instagram with a million pics of you when the time finally comes and we get to see your gorgeous face.

And then there's the invaluable advice from every other person...

"Get a hot curry down you tonight, that should do the trick!" - yeah because a runny bum & a ring of fire is exactly what I want when I go into labour.

"Go for a long walk, that might get her moving." - I have been walking. I've been out walking almost every single day. I've walked and walked and walked. It does bugger all, but thanks.

"Have you tried having sex, wink wink nudge nudge" - yes I have thank you. To no avail.

Do they think I haven't had a baby before. Like I haven't heard all these old wives tales before. And if they were so effective your brother wouldn't have been 8 days overdue would he?!

The worst part is, these people mean well. They are just excited to meet you or are just trying to be helpful. So I politely respond, but inside I'm starting to rage a little. I just don't want to hear it. This last stretch of pregnancy is the worst!!

And to add a little something else to the mix, I had an appointment with the midwife last week. At my 37 week appointment my growth seemed to have slowed down a little. At this appointment, my fundal height had barely increased at all. So much so that we've been referred for a growth scan to check you are ok. The midwife reckons it's probably more to do with you going from not being engaged at all to 4/5th engaged in that space of time.... but we have to check. But the stupid scan isn't for another 2 days. You could be here by then! But then again, probably not :(

Come on now baby, mummy & daddy just want to have you here to hold safe & sound xx